For such a Time as This: When God Uses the Breaking to Reveal the Becoming.
There are days when life feels heavier than it should – days when disappointments hits harder, when finances feel impossible, when people you’ve helped and supported suddenly feel like the very source of your frustration. Today was one of those days for me.
A job fell through. Bills are due. My bank account is empty. And someone who depends on me daily – someone I’ve shown up for over and over – gave me attitude on a day when I barely had anything left to give. I felt myself getting irritated, emotional, and honestly ….tired of being the strong one.
But in the middle of all that frustration, a verse kept coming back to me: ” And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?” – Esther 4:14
I used to read that verse as a call to courage. Today, I read it as a reminder of positioning. Esther didn’t choose her position, didn’t choose the palace, didn’t choose the pressure. But God used the very place she didn’t choose to reveal the purpose she didn’t know she had.
And that is where I am at right now. The Breaking.
I’m upset, I ‘m disappointed and I am tired of being relied on without being respected. I am tired of carrying someone else’s life while mine feels like it’s hanging by a thread. Tired of being quiet when something inside me is begging to speak.
But I’m learning something important, sometimes the breaking is the first sign of becoming. Sometimes the irritation is the first sign of the awakening and sometimes the frustration is the first sign that God is shifting you our of what no longer fits.
The Blessed. Jeremiah 33:3 says: ” Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.” He is showing me what I can no longer tolerate, where I’ve been undervalued, what drains me, what dishonors me, what I’ve outgrown, what I am meant to walk away from, and what I’m being prepared for.
Purpose doesn’t always show up in a dream, sometimes it shows up as a holy dissatisfaction.
The Becoming.
When I ask myself, ” What part of me is rising?” I don’t feel brave, or strong. I don’t feel like Esther standing before a king. But rising doesn’t always feel like courage. Sometimes rising feels like :
I can’t keep shrinking, can’t keep being silent, can’t keep carrying this alone, and I can’t keep letting people treat me this way. That’s the rise, the shift, that’s the becoming.
I’m realizing that God is not just calling me out of something – He’s calling me into something. Into purpose, clarity, boundaries, truth, a voice I’ve spent years quieting. Into a life that honors who I am becoming, not who I used to be.
For Such a Time as This
Maybe you’re in a similiar season, where everything feels uncertain, unfair, or overwhelming. Maybe you’re tired of being strong. Maybe you’re tired of being needed but not valued. Maybe you’re tired of carrying more than your share.
If so, hear this:
- You are not stuck; You are being positioned.
- You are no failing; You are awakening.
- You are not losing your mind; You are finding your voice.
And maybe, just maybe, you are here for such a time as this. Not because the place is perfect. But because you are being perfected. Not because the situation is fair, but because God is using it to reveal who you are becoming.
This is the season where the Broken places Become the Blessed places….and the Blessed places Become the beginning of your Becoming.
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